I need time.

I fell in love once before
Now I won't be fallin' for that anymore
Somewhere in your basement
I think I misplaced my heart
What did I do that for?
I don't want to see you
I don't want to hear your sweet voice
No I don't want to talk anymore
So if you happen to find it
I'd be much oblidged
If you'd drop it off at my front door

And don't leave a note 'cause I swear if you wrote me
I'd probably take it all back
And God only knows, I must stay on my toes
'Cause I can't allow myself to do that
I always wanted you to stay
But now I'm wishing you away

If this is what love feels like
I'm done with it.

I fell in love once before
Now I won't be fallin' for that anymore
You'd whisper to me and we'd watch some TV
As we'd lay on your living room floor

I don't want to see you
I don't want to hear your sweet voice
No I don't want to talk anymore
So if you happen to think of me
Don't think that I will be waiting around like before

And don't call my phone
'Cause I'm feeling alone
And I'd probably take it all back
And God only knows, I must stay on my toes
'Cause I can't allow myself to do that
I always wanted you to stay
But now I'm wishing you away
If this is what love feels like
I'm done with it

I fell in love once before
Now I won't be fallin' for that anymore

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Guys, song of my life.

Can't be controlled.

"I don't care what you think about me, I don't think about you at all.''

Coco Chanel

In life,

you will meet people who annoys the shit outta you.

But that's okay.

In life,

you will meet people who are dumb like anything.

But that's okay.

In life,

you will meet people who just don't understand you.

But that's still okay.

In life,

you will meet bossy people who like to tell you what to do.

And if you don't follow, they get angry.

THIS IS NOT OKAY.

In life,

you will meet people who are self-centered as hell.

Maybe I can tolerate that, but NOT today.

In life,

you will meet people who judge you just because you live different lives.

This..

is NOT.fucking.okay.

In a life like mine,

you will meet someone with 90% of the above attitudes.

and still have to live WITH them.

My point here today is,

I don't like to be told what to do and I don't like to be controlled.

 (Unless you're my parents)

I'm gonna stop beating around the bush and get to the point.

I really dislike people who makes decisions for others without prior discussions.

And the decision is based on their own reasons.

Like eg. We'll go tomorrow because I want to skip the test.

Then what about the rest?

YOU made the decision without ANY discussion with us.

You can't pick up the bloody phone to whatsapp us saying ''oh is so and so okay? everyone agrees?''

YOU made the decision and expect us to follow?

And obviously, some of us think otherwise and would rather go on a day which is test-free..

For that,

you wanna get pissed and show air muka?

Not only are you one hell of a selfish fool who refuses to listen and accept other people's opinions,

you also proved that you have no damn respect for the rest of us.

Fine.

You wanna go on that day, by all means, GO.

If you get into trouble,

that's your shit.

BUT,

don't brainwash other people and influencing them to go according to your will.

Too bad to say,

I'm not easily brain washed like some of the rest.

Unhappy?

Live with it.

Then when all this turned into one hell of a huge drama,

you come with your pity face and teary eyes saying

''I didn't know so and so.''

I ain't stupid.

We already told you our opinions before this,

meaning,

you knew.

Then you say,

''If you all feel this way, why didn't tell earlier?''

Fck you!

You made a decision and come to us out of no blue moon telling us this this this.

HOW TO KNOW EARLIER?

But I shut up anyways because I know, God will show.

And HE DID.

Everyone else realised it was impossible to bunk a test.

and have all decided to come with us on Friday instead.

And due to some other circumstances,

we couldn't make it on Weds anyways.

This is what happens when you think you're on hell of a great and not listening to other people's opinions.

Anyways, chuck this issue.

Next.

It's my life.

I do whatever I wish.

Let me make things clear.

Drinking is not a bad thing.

As long as you're not fcking addicted to that shit, then it's fine.

So just because YOU don't drink,

it means you're a freaking saint.

I like to party. I like to go clubbing.

"I don't understand why these people so excited to go clubbing.''

You don't fancy, you don't understand, your problem.

Don't criticise my social life.

Don't call me party animal (coz im not).

As long as I know how to control and I know what I'm doin',

then clubbing isn't a bad thing for me.

Staying in your room doesn't make you all goody-two-shoes either.

And what rights have you got to get angry with our friend for coming to the club?

She just wanted to 'see'.

It doesn't mean she has to drink alcohol.

In fact,

she drank orange juice.

What is wrong with seeing how a club is?

What is wrong in knowing? 

How can you judge as such?

"My boyfriend doesn't really like me to go clubbing. Even if I go, must go with good company. And that good company is my parents.''

Woman, that's your boyfriend.

And your boyfriend is Indian,

I bet he drinks.

I don't care if you think drinking makes me a fucked up person.

I'm drinking.

I want to punish my liver, my issue.

You stay out of my shit, just like how I do yours.

And oh.

Readers, see this:

"Getting drunk is all about the mind. If you can control your mind, you'd still be able to walk and think and talk properly.''

First of all,

it is scientifically proven that alcohol does shit to your brains.

Second of all,

you've never been drunk.

SO DON'T TALK BULL.

One day we were talking bout making trips to parts of India during short holidays.

"I don't wanna go coz I came here to study. and we go in 3rd year lah.''

 What.the.hell.

Conclusion:

 We all have different life principles. Just because mine is different, it doesn't mean it's wrong and I'm screwed up. If I opt to not follow your way, it doesn't give you the rights to judge.

You stay out of my business. and I'll leave you alone.

I know it annoys you that I don't follow what you say,

suck it up and move on bitch.

Readers!

TELL ME IF I'M WRONG ON THIS ONE.

She thinks I'm freaking adorable

OMG! :D

Guess what I wore today???

:D

Punjabi suit 

Damn flattering, I know.

and oh,

my right hand currently smells like rasem (indian soup)

because today..

I used my hands as fork and spoon.

&

the smell shall wear off upon multiple washings with Lifebuoy.

  haih it is goooood to be back lah.

The flight back, however, was 'great'.

3.5 hours of air turbulence really did me a lot good.

At first I thought it was because I needed sleep..

but then that sicky feeling got worst..

then I thought it was coz I needed to replenish my glucose level,

so i ordered Nasi Lemak on flight (which came with Nescafe).

But nooo..

As if that isn't bad enough,

I needed to use the loo.

But then the turbulence was so bad they didn't allow us to use the loo......

But eventually,

I didn't give 2 fucks and went anyways.

First day back at coll today and I have to say,

the weather is simply fantastic, really.

I stepped out of the class and I feel this gush of hot air..

gently caressing against my cheeks...

& the first class was prostho in which we needed to use the bunsen burner and we had to switch off the fan........

Sensational.

I sweat more than I pee, literally.

I'm not sure if it's on the Malaysian newspapers,

but the petrol price in India has gone up..

massively, I assume.

Because yesterday,

I had to do some shopping.

The usual Rs.60 ride became Rs.80.

 We managed to bargained Rs.70.

Like damn big deal right...

Rs.10 (RM 0.70) also reluctant to pay wtf

What to do?

Money don't fall from the sky.

After shopping for some provisions 

(2 Sensondyne toothpaste for approx RM 10.50 + free toothbrush!)

we made a short but expensive trip (Rs.150 = RM 10.50) to Western Union.

That made me a tad lil happy coz the exchange rate was pretty high :DDD

Rs.1 = RM 17.40

So yeah, back to petrol.

The auto driver was giving a lecture in Tamil bout going on strike because of the petrol price etc etc etc..

just because we refused to pay the extra Rs.10.

=/

But whatever,

he talking to his own auto coz I don't understand.

HAHAHAH

Ok lah, petrol price increase so auto ride price also increase..

I can understand.

 But I don't understand why coconut juice and egg price also increase.

They water the trees and feed the chickens petrol?

Right after coll we walked to the coconut stall to down some juice.

I know what you're imagining.

& your imagination is right.

It is a roadside stall full of coconuts where to old lady will chop open the coconut and you drink straight from the fruit.

Then beside the stall got one cow eating the coconut shells...

behind that got some coconut trees.

The usual price was Rs.20, 

today was Rs.25.

Not like the coconut became bigger and juicier after being watered with petrol.

After coconut juice, we crossed the road to a small alley to buy eggs.

Last time the eggs were bout Rs.2-ish.

Today was Rs.3.25

I was thinking how to pay that Rs.0.25 because it's soooo small.

Like... RM 0.0175

haiyo.

Not like the chicken produced eggs with higher protein content after being fed with petrol.

I ran back to the room after that,

turned on the AC and stood right in front of it whilst drinking COLD COLD COLD water from the fridge.

I happily went into the toilet and did some undergarment washing.

Yes, I wash my own undies coz I think making the ayamma do it is.. rude.

Then I stripped and turned on the shower.

...

Fcking boiling water.

I tell you ah,

the weather really does alot.

My drinking water became air suam.

My wax blocks sorta turned soft halfway through carving class.

Now the shower water also become HOT.

But I didn't give 2 fucks and showered anyways.

I really thank God for the AC in our room.

On a much much much brighter note,

AU JO EY.

IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAYYY!

happy 19th love :)

(repeats what I posted on FB)

you take care now.

Have a blast.

not gonna ask you to save some cake for me coz by the time i come back.

the thing already growing colonies of moss and what not.

hahahahahahhahaha

not gonna write emo stuff now.

so have fun!!!